What is a waterfall without water actually falling? You’ve guessed right! It’s just a bunch of rocks piled together…dry…in need of something to maintain its beauty, at least that’s how I saw it today.
I was supposed to be photographing a tranquil waterfall today, but because there was no falling water, I had to move to a location which didn’t really intrigue me or give me time to contemplate my life decisions, nevertheless, it was pretty fun when I finally got to photograph families and they’re magical moments. I asked them to be silly with me and they went along for the ride! This location wasn’t terrible, it just gave me a lot of alone time, I had a lot of things running through my head, for instance my current situation…to stay or not to stay.
I’ve been thinking about my future a lot, lately. Of course being here would be great for my future because it could open a lot of doors, but what if it doesn’t and I stay in the same field for a long time with the fear of not enjoying what I do for the rest of my life. Going back to tiny town would give me the chance to be somewhere familiar and a place where I love to be. I didn’t always believe that. Maybe I need to be the water to my tiny town??
I’ve been in this new world for about 3 months now and it certainly is different. I was given the choice to stay in this world and kind of make a name for myself. I would be creating my new life here, but I’m I really ready for this? Everyday I think about something new I miss from home. Smells, restaurants, scenery, friends, my love, and family are a few. I think to myself, can I leave most of that behind knowing I may rarely see my favorite things or even my favorite people? I still don’t know the answer. I recently visited home for the first time since I left to this new world, and I love everything about my little town. I remember when I would always think that it was such a boring place to live, but being away for awhile made me see the beauty in it and what the wonderful things my tiny town had to offer. Coming back here, to magic land, made me see the loudness and craziness of it all. Yes, it is a blessing to be here, but can I stay, alone? I’m still not sure. I think, if I stay, things will stay the same. I would rarely see my most favorite people who mean the world to me. That would make things really hard.
Before visiting tiny town, I signed my life to magic land, something I was positive I wanted to do. I wanted to stay here and make magic for everyone of all ages. Then I went home, and everything had changed. My decision to stay in magic land had been corrupted by my tiny town visit. Everything is all wonky now.
I don’t know what I want to do with my life, is that a problem?